I hated him, loved him, wanted him, and yet I wished him away. So many conflicting emotions of wants

I hated him, loved him, wanted him, and yet I …

I hated him, loved him, wanted him, and yet I wished him away. So many conflicting emotions of wants and needs. So much fear. Not because of him, but because of myself—of how deep my feelings and desires were running, and how much I would fall if I happened to lose my grip.

J.C. Reed